"Today is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."
There is no way I could continue in my "pity party" after all the words of encouragement I received from text, email, Facebook, blog and phone calls. The prayers of so many helped me rest last night and I was able to wake up this morning refreshed and refocused on what God has for me and not what I think should happen for my day. Yesterday while waiting on our shuttle, I was sitting on a bench crying and 2 little sparrows came over by us and Tony reminded me that God watches over those little birds, and that God's love is even greater for me. This morning Jordan sent me a text with the following song attached. I did not talk to Jordan all day yesterday and she hadn't even read my blog. God used so many last night and today to get my thoughts back towards Him.
The appointment scheduler called us this morning and said that our insurance was telling MD Anderson they had to wait 3 days before doing a CT scan on me. I'm not sure I will ever understand the insurance world when a doctor puts in a request and they can refuse treatment due to their policy world. God took care of our insurance and soon after my conversation with the scheduler, I had a CT scheduled for this afternoon. I also have an appointment tomorrow morning at 10:50 to meet with the clinical trial doctor (Dr Wheeler for prayer by name).
It is so easy to get caught up in your own world that you forget so many are hurting around you. Coming to MD Anderson has opened my eyes to see that this "cancer" world is ugly and the fight for survival is bigger than my mind can comprehend. We've seen so many people that are hurting and barely getting around. This is an on going battle, but I'm thankful the battle is not mine, but the Lord is fighting it for me. I win in the end no matter what. I had a sweet lady sit next to me today and we had a great visit about God's promises and goodness and she reminded me of those truths. The incredible thing about her name is that it is the same as my grandmother Vera Mae who impacted my life immensly when I was growing up regarding spiritual matters. I've never known anyone else with that name and I know God brought her into my path today for a great reason. It was His reminder in a big way that He does have everything in my life under control. I met another man from Canden AR that was told over 13 years ago that he only had 3 months to live and he's still alive and doing well today. These two were placed in my path today and I thank God for his reminder. All 3 of us shared of how this journey is not ours but it is for the Lord and to keep our eyes on Him and to make Him known.
We were able to go to dinner tonight with our kids who live in Houston (Chris & Kacee) and grandchildren (Addison, Cadence and Jaxon). So thankful to have this time to spend with family and grandchildren who always make your life more complete and happy. Thank you for such love and encouragement from so many and I am so grateful for all that God reminded me today of how great He really is!!!
Psalm 103:1-5 "Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not his benefits, who forgives all your inquity, who heals all your disesases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satifies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's."