It has been a great week and I have felt good, even after having chemo two days ago. I have carried on with life as "normal" as possible. I had forgotten that I was tested on Tuesday for my CA 125 (cancer markers) and had not heard from the doctor about the results. I called this morning and had a peace that no matter the outcome of the number, I would be okay. My numbers are up again, 395.8 from 392 a few weeks ago. I didn't go into panic mode, I just thanked God immediately that He was in control. I sent a text to Tony, Bryan, Jenna and Jordan to let them know the results. Here is what I said to them "CA 125 is up more but I'm trusting God and thankful for feeling so good. My eyes will remain on Jesus!!! His mercies are new every morning, great is His faithfulness!!!!" Jordan responded back with this verse; Romans 4:20-21 "No distrust made him (them) waver concerning the promise of God, but he (they) grew strong in their faith as he (they) gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what He had promised." She added; "May this be said of our family." Tony soon after sent me a link to a Youtube video so I opened it up and figured he had sent a Christian song or something inspirational. (Tony is great about finding a song for any word you could imagine) What's funny is that I put my cell phone on speaker so I could hear the song and there was an advertisement about Monster's Inc going to Disney World & Land and they would be open all night starting Memorial Day weekend. I was so confused why he would send me that link until I realized that it was a commercial ad that I could skip. I hit the skip button and below is the link he had sent me;
It is Dean Martin singing "Houston". This was Tony's way of telling me, we are going to get a second opinion whether it be in Houston or elsewhere. Our family has a peace that God will lead us in the right direction. We are looking into MD Anderson in Houston and Cancer Treatment Center in Tulsa. I would welcome any input from those that have been to either place. I am going to talk to my doctors next week about a referral and see what direction they would recommend. We keep saying "one more month" before we go elsewhere, and now it has been at least four months since we originally said those words.
It is a blessing not to be in a panic mode or to have any fear in my situation. I know no matter what happens in my life, I win in the end, knowing where I will spend eternity. I don't have to hope I get into Heaven but I have a calm assurance that I placed my life and faith in Jesus and I have the faith that He died for me, forgave my sins and I am a follower after Him. Philippians 4:4-9 "Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me-practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you."
Only God and God alone can give me the peace and calm I have in my life. I will continue to keep my eyes on Him and I am looking forward to the direction He will lead our family in this next chapter of our lives.
"Today is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."
I'm still here! Barely!
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