I found out the pain in my back for the past several weeks is due to cancer in my bones. They started me on an IV drug today called Zometa to help strengthen my bones, then in a few weeks I will have radiation to target the cancer in my bones. I also have a potential spot on my liver and spots on my chest, leg and lungs. The lymph nodes in my abdomen have increased as well. Since I haven't had chemo for the past 3 weeks and knowing that I have genetic mutation tumors (growing rapidly) my doctor didn't seemed surprised, but was grateful that we have a plan ahead of us with the new clinical trial targeted drug. For some reason, I'm at peace with the news given to me today. I know God wasn't surprised with any of it and is already sovereign over all my days. I know this peace wouldn't be possible if it wasn't coming from knowing Jesus as my personal Lord and Savior and that my eternity will be forever with Him. I would rather have cancer and know my eternal destination than to be healthy and not know where my eternity will end up. Some may wonder how I can be sure of my eternal destiny and one of the greatest verses in the Bible says, "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16.
I am so grateful that I'm not alone in this journey and God has placed so many wonderful people in my path. I believe another new chapter began in my life today. Many people are praying for me and I'm okay with whatever the outcome is for my life, but I ask for prayer for my family. My husband and children see me everyday and feel helpless sometimes on what they can do, but I pray God will continue to give them the grace and strength He continues to give me. Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through him who strengthens me."
|Thank you Gabardi family for my beautiful flowers that were sent today.|
"Today is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."