I go in tomorrow morning to start the first day of the clinical trial study. I have to admit that these past few weeks my body has struggled with pain and not a lot of strength. I think I've allowed my mind to be consumed with not feeling the greatest that I've had a hard time of staying focused on day to day living. Tomorrow will begin a new chapter in my life and I'm ready for the cancer cells to die off and for my body to regain strength. This week is one of our biggest weeks for our youth. It is our DNOW (Disciple Now) Weekend. Students have until tomorrow evening to get signed up and as of today we have a total of 323. We take all the students and divide them up into Host Homes. Families in our church allow students to spend Friday and Saturday night in their homes along with a college leader. We have 3 large rallies at our church over the course of the weekend where we bring in a speaker and band. Food is provided for the whole weekend to everyone that is involved. I know God's grace and strength will see me through this week and my prayer is that I will be feeling good enough to go on a vacation with Tony this time next week.
Below is something I read in my daily reading called "Jesus Today". And as always, God's timing is always perfect!
"My unfailing Love is your "FUEL"-the best source of energy for you. This glorious source of strength is limitless, so it is always abundantly available. You tend to get quite focused on your health and energy. There is a place for such concerns, but they can occupy more and more of your thoughts. When you are preoccupied with the condition of your body, I slip from the center of your mind to the periphery. At such times, you are unable to receive much help from Me. The remedy is to repent quickly-turning away from obsessive thinking and turning wholeheartedly toward Me.
The more you focus on Me, the more access you have to My unfailing Love. This supernatural source of energy flows through you freely as you look to Me in trust. Not only does this increase your energy level; it also provides a pathway for Me to love other people through you. So let My limitless Love energize and empower you as you walk along your life-path close to Me."
I received several phone calls, texts and visits today and many told me they would be praying for my strength for today and the rest of this week specifically. I truly felt God's power pick me up today and He gave me energy to get my job accomplished for today. We ended the evening with dinner out with all the family and for some reason, that always re-energizes my spirit.
"Today is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."
I'm still here! Barely!
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