I went in this morning for an updated platelet count and found out that it had dropped to 7,000, which anything less than 10,000 is critical. To put it in perspective, Rhett (my 10 month old grandson) had his blood drawn today and his platelets were normal at 515,000.
I am now sitting in the hospital getting a transfusion of platelets and blood. This will be my last trip to the hospital. Tomorrow we are meeting with hospice.
We met with the funeral home yesterday to begin making arrangements and we are meeting with the cemetery on Monday.
This all may seem morbid to others, but it feels like God is wrapping up an early Christmas/Birthday present and pouring a lot of grace in there because it doesn't feel like it's happening to me. Although my body seems to be shutting down, I have felt great all day and The Lord has allowed to me feel well enough to visit with friends and family.
So while all medical tests point to me being "critical", The Lord has given me grace to feel completely and surprisingly stable today.
There is a song with the lyrics: "You're all I want, You're all I ever needed."
I told some friends a few weeks ago that I didn't feel like those words were true for me because I still had so much I wanted to see and do. I wanted to be able to see my grand kids grow up. But I can honestly say now that these lyrics are true for me. Jesus is truly all I want and need. I know my family will be okay and that they'll take care of each other.
"This is the day that The Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."