So thankful that we have a God that is always with us. Life changes around us daily and with that can come fear and uneasiness. The evil of the world is getting worse, the uncertainties of our tomorrow seems to be growing dimmer and life in general is passing by so quickly. I remember being a little girl and thinking it took forever for Christmas to get here. Now days, I feel it comes so quickly, that we celebrate it every 3 months. The commercialism of this time of the year makes me wonder how Jesus really feels about the way we celebrate His birth. Do we really stop and give any account of what it took for Him to be born of a virgin and that He lived a perfect sinless life but allowed Himself to be crucified on a cross for our lives? Why do we put so much time, money and effort into giving to others that we forget or pass over the greatest gift ever given to us?
Ever since my diagnosis of "cancer", God has brought so many into my life that have a family member or friend that are struggling with the disease. I'm sure it's been all around me, but now my eyes have been open to it so much more. The sadness that families and friends face when a loved one is diagnosed with cancer can be so paralyzing. I'm not sure what my tomorrow holds, but I do know Who holds my tomorrow and I am so thankful for His promises. He said He would never leave me or forsake me. He works ALL things out for good!!
I have been blessed beyond my wildest thoughts or dreams knowing people pray for me. When I was first diagnosed with cancer, I had some amazing friends have bracelets made for me for others to wear to remind them to pray for me. Even though that was 10 months ago, I still see people wearing my bracelets, and the hope that brings to my soul and spirit is unexplainable. How many times have I prayed for others but 10 months later, am I still praying for them? My brother called me today and said many people asked him after church how I was doing. People I don't even know continue to care and pray for me. God has shown me so much grace!
It's been a little over 2 1/2 months since I have had any treatment and have basically been almost free from blood work and doctors. I never want to take for granted each day I am blessed to wake up and enjoy life. My hair continues to grow and Tony calls me "S&P" for salt and pepper hair. I'm really to a point I could stop wearing hats and put a little gel in my hair and be good with it. I do know that any second of any day my life could change, whether with myself or with my family. That is why I have a peace that God is always with me and He never changes. He's the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and I will continue to put my hope and trust in Him.
"Today is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."
I'm still here! Barely!
3 weeks ago